Marista Faere
05-16-2004, 09:19 PM
Dear sir,
First, let me apologise for not remembering your name. Secondly, please allow me to thank you in advance for this forum. Lastly, let me give you a description of me, my current status, and what seems to be plaguing me.
I am a childhood survivor of many forms of abuse from my deceased violent alcholic father. A good description of my very early childhood could be similar to excerpts from When Rabbit Howls. Along with never having any privacy or boundaries in my house, walking on eggshells constantly, and having a butcher knife held to my throat, to name a few, I have also had several traumatic (and I use traumatic justly in this instance, not from my feeling or interpretation of them through experience) near-death experiences. I have went to several psychologists and psychiatrists for the last 14 years before attempting a free drug trial with Emory University. It was at that time I was diagnosed properly with PTSD.
My two questions are these 1) do patients with extreme PTSD have the predisposition to MPD? And if so, do they lead "normal" lives via medication and psychotherapy?
Right now, I am having minor hallucinations, short periods of black-outs/disassociation, and am hearing people calling my name, when no one is around. If I didn't have a strong enough mind, I wouldn't be able to tell the difference; however, it does aggravate my stress level to where I become more forgetful, lose track of time, and end up taking more xanax. And that adversely affects my job performance.
2) Are people with PTSD able to become permanently disabled and receive benefits through the government?
I apologise if this is too much to answer to. Please help in any way you can. Thanks!
Sincerely,
Marista Faere (one of my alter egos)
First, let me apologise for not remembering your name. Secondly, please allow me to thank you in advance for this forum. Lastly, let me give you a description of me, my current status, and what seems to be plaguing me.
I am a childhood survivor of many forms of abuse from my deceased violent alcholic father. A good description of my very early childhood could be similar to excerpts from When Rabbit Howls. Along with never having any privacy or boundaries in my house, walking on eggshells constantly, and having a butcher knife held to my throat, to name a few, I have also had several traumatic (and I use traumatic justly in this instance, not from my feeling or interpretation of them through experience) near-death experiences. I have went to several psychologists and psychiatrists for the last 14 years before attempting a free drug trial with Emory University. It was at that time I was diagnosed properly with PTSD.
My two questions are these 1) do patients with extreme PTSD have the predisposition to MPD? And if so, do they lead "normal" lives via medication and psychotherapy?
Right now, I am having minor hallucinations, short periods of black-outs/disassociation, and am hearing people calling my name, when no one is around. If I didn't have a strong enough mind, I wouldn't be able to tell the difference; however, it does aggravate my stress level to where I become more forgetful, lose track of time, and end up taking more xanax. And that adversely affects my job performance.
2) Are people with PTSD able to become permanently disabled and receive benefits through the government?
I apologise if this is too much to answer to. Please help in any way you can. Thanks!
Sincerely,
Marista Faere (one of my alter egos)